I don’t know why I’m writing this, but it felt important to write to you. There are a million things I’ve fumbled and somehow I’ve assumed the identity of someone who fumbles stuff. This greatly applies to my writing career and has since affected the consistency of my work.
Consistency. The word alone inspires fear in me. I want to write. It’s clear that it’s what I want to spend my entire life doing. Yet I find myself unable to commit to the one thing I seemingly enjoy doing the most. Or maybe I have commitment issues. Maybe that’s my problem: my inability to commit.
The reason why I’m writing this is not yet clear to me. But like I’ve mentioned earlier, it felt important to write to you. I received a newsletter from one of my favourite writers and after reading it, I realized that I was paying too much attention to the wrong things. That I wasn’t doing what was expected of me.
When I look at my life and the things I’ve started work on and eventually abandon(ed), I see a pattern and that pattern is lack of commitment. This is especially true in my personal career. And this newsletter is just another reflection of that flaw. It is also true that discovering that you have a problem is the beginning of finding a solution.
So, I guess I’m writing this to you because I realized that another problem I have aside from a lack of commitment is my terrible communication skills. And how ironic is that? A writer who is bad at communication? I know. I know. That’s not a good look. However, I think it helps that I recognize this and the only way to prove that to you is to communicate.
What does this mean to you as a reader? It means that I want to be accountable and not feel like I don’t owe you. It means that I want to treat this newsletter as I ought to: to consistently provide you with information that’s as insightful as it’s entertaining. My guts insist that *we’re* building a community that’s solid and that *we* can do this together, only that I have to play my role by showing up at the exact moment.
Thank God it’s Friday. What are you listening to? Reekado Banks just released his new EP and I think my favourite is the last song, Self Esteem. And that Omah Lay nigga? Somebody put cuffs on him please!
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I don’t know why I’m writing this, but it felt important to write to you. There are a million things I’ve fumbled and somehow I’ve assumed the identity of someone who fumbles stuff. This greatly applies to my writing career and has since affected the consistency of my work.
Consistency. The word alone inspires fear in me. I want to write. It’s clear that it’s what I want to spend my entire life doing. Yet I find myself unable to commit to the one thing I seemingly enjoy doing the most. Or maybe I have commitment issues. Maybe that’s my problem: my inability to commit.
The reason why I’m writing this is not yet clear to me. But like I’ve mentioned earlier, it felt important to write to you. I received a newsletter from one of my favourite writers and after reading it, I realized that I was paying too much attention to the wrong things. That I wasn’t doing what was expected of me.
When I look at my life and the things I’ve started work on and eventually abandon(ed), I see a pattern and that pattern is lack of commitment. This is especially true in my personal career. And this newsletter is just another reflection of that flaw. It is also true that discovering that you have a problem is the beginning of finding a solution.
So, I guess I’m writing this to you because I realized that another problem I have aside from a lack of commitment is my terrible communication skills. And how ironic is that? A writer who is bad at communication? I know. I know. That’s not a good look. However, I think it helps that I recognize this and the only way to prove that to you is to communicate.
What does this mean to you as a reader? It means that I want to be accountable and not feel like I don’t owe you. It means that I want to treat this newsletter as I ought to: to consistently provide you with information that’s as insightful as it’s entertaining. My guts insist that *we’re* building a community that’s solid and that *we* can do this together, only that I have to play my role by showing up at the exact moment.
Thank God it’s Friday. What are you listening to? Reekado Banks just released his new EP and I think my favourite is the last song, Self Esteem. And that Omah Lay nigga? Somebody put cuffs on him please!
I hope you enjoy your weekend.
Cheers.